It`s not about winning

Norseman was the A-race this year and my goal was to win. At least that was what I said to my sponsors and everyone else. In that, I failed. I didn’t win. Most people imagined how bitter it must have been, racing for ten hours, leading nearly three of them, then being caught with 100 meters to go. How disappointed I must have been. I can reassure you that I am totally fine.

I understand that it is difficult to believe, but it is not about winning. It never has been. My triathlon journey started in 2008 when signing up for Norseman. I wanted to challenge myself and doing the impossible, at least when I looked upon as impossible. More than ten years later, that is still what I want to do. Challenging myself and moving boundaries of what’s possible.

I didn’t hug the winner Hans Christian Tungesvik because I felt I had to do it. I was genuinely appreciative for the competition he brought with his performance and happy on his behalf. It was well earned. My race would never have been that good without him. Photo: NXTRI/Alexander Koerner.

In that regards Norseman 2018, when I won with a solid margin, I failed in that. I did not move any boundaries, rather cruised in the final stretch when my lead was up to 23 minutes at most. I was disappointed over my own performance. With that metric as a KPI, this year`s Norseman was one of my biggest successes.

Together with my supporter Henrik Oftedal I had been running maximal sustainable pace the whole way up the mountain, not putting my guard down for a second. When I saw Hans Christian 30 meters behind me I started a final sprint, challenging my own thought about holding the maximal sustainable pace. It ended after a few seconds leaving me barely able to walk on the little plateau with the elevator entry. The victory was lost, but I reached my true goal. Giving everything I f**** got.

The moment, which most other must have looked upon as devastating, felt peaceful. It felt like I crossed my personal finish line. I made it. I reached the state where it was absolutely nothing left in the tank. I had done everything in my power to push as fast and hard as possible.

Beaten, but not disappointed 🙂

Most people don’t understand, which I understand. We live in a «winner takes it all» world. Lucy Gossage, the female winner of Norseman, who I got to know well before and after Patagonman, understood. She won with a margin of 30 minutes. Winning like that sure feels good. However, it lacks the excitement, it lacks the fight and it lacks moving boundaries. It lacks the core reasons why me, and many with me, are doing triathlons.

Don’t feel sorry for my result in Norseman. Be happy for the epic battle and excitement it brought to the race. Be happy for the interest it injects to Norseman and be happy for my motivation to do everything in my power not never ever let it happen again. Next year I will absolutely crush it 😉

In my quest to becoming the most aerodynamic triathlete in the world, I have gone into great details for optimizing everything. Everything from choosing every big and tiny component on the bike, designing my own trisuit together with Biocar, hand-sewing my shoe covers and getting CFD-simulation of where and how I should mount my bottles. Its a part of the process which I highly enjoy. And I am all about the process, not about the end result.

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triallan

I am a 33 year old PRO triatlete. My goal is to swim, bike and run as fast as possible, and enjoy the journey. All my adventures and triathlon related stuff is well documented on this blog.

2 kommentarer til “It`s not about winning

  1. Bra bortforklaring, mener du lurer deg selv her.
    Liker mange av verdiene du står for, men dette var skivebom og bare en dårlig unnskyldning.
    Greit at du kan forsone deg med andreplassen da. Lykke til i Lofoten.

    1. Om noe er skivebom her så må det være kommentaren din Per. Det Allan skriver her går igjen i flere av innleggene hans gjennom årene. Hans verdier har han vært ganske konsekvent, og derfor er også dette innlegget meget troverdig. I fjor, når han vant, skrev han i race report’en at han var skuffet over sin personlige prestasjonen selv om han vant. Selv om det kan virke rart så er jeg med på det han skriver. Jeg vil også tro at det der og da i årets konkurranse kjennes tungt å bli slått på målstreken, og at en seier ville vært prikke over i’en i det man føler er sin beste gjennomføring, samtidig som jeg fullt ut forstår det han skriver her. Når Lars Christian Vold ikke skulle delta i år var jeg usikker på om noen av de andre deltakerne kunne utfordre seieren i år. Det er uansett spennende å følge med, men fy flate for en thriller av et løp det var i år. Blir bare enda mer spennende nå å se duellen mellom Tungesvik og Hovda i 2020. Regner med og håper begge stiller igjen neste år og at ikke skader eller andre uforutsette ting ødelegger duellen. Skulle likt å sett Vold med i den konkurransen samtidig. Men da må det også gjøres en bedre jobb med livesendingen av løpet, som i år var meget skuffende. Tidenes duell som man stort sett kun fikk følge på Livetracker. Gleder meg allerede til å følge løpet neste år (hvis man ikke skulle være så heldig å få billett selv da) 😊

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